Susannah survived the surgery this morning only to pass away an hour later. I am heartbroken.

208 thoughts on “Heartbroken

  1. Sue Dietz

    My heart breaks with you. So many of us have come to love all your animals as well as you. I will be praying for peace for you. Grieve and remember some good things with her.

    Sue Dietz

  2. MartyCae

    I am so very sorry. I am thinking about you. Thanks so much for sharing her story with us – I really enjoyed reading about her antics.

  3. Marylou

    My heart is breaking for you. There are no words to make you feel better but just know so many have you on their minds and in their hearts, and I am one of them. Many hugs for you

  4. Linette Stewart

    I am so sorry for your loss. The pain of losing a beloved pet hurts so much. I believe our pets will meet us in heaven when we get there. Susannah will be there looking for her comfy chair. I love your blog and it has lifted my spirits many times when life has been hard. God bless you.

  5. Bernadette Jackson

    It was so good of you to make the surgery available to her. Sorry, Mary, that it wasn’t a better outcome.

  6. Beryl

    Oh, so sorry. I know you loved her so much. Must have been for her good so she wouldn’t have to suffer any longer.
    HUGS to you.

  7. Betty Cain

    Really sorry to hear Susannah passed away today by surgery – I am support with her family in my prayer…



  8. Linette Stewart

    I am so sorry for your loss. I believe our pets will meet us in heaven when we get there. Susannah will be there looking for her comfy chair. I love your blog and it has lifted my spirits many times when life has been hard. God bless you.

  9. Gina Decker

    Oh Mary! I am so sorry! Susannah was such a part of your life and such a part of our lives. She is with God running around his feet waiting to meet with you again and I know you will see her again.

    God is with you to help ease your pain.

    God Bless you for all the love and care you have given so many animals. I wish there were so many more that goes above and beyond as you do.
    Susannah is at peace now.

  10. Cynthia

    Oh, I am so very, very sorry. She was such a special little girl to all of us. My sincerest sympathy.

  11. Sally Dunn

    I hope that all of the memories of fun times that you shared together will comfort you now. It is so hard to lose them…..the farm just won’t be the same without her! So very sorry– my heart hurts for you.

  12. Jan

    Oh, I am so sorry for your loss. I’m sure she has gone to the Rainbow Bridge where you will someday see her again. I know how much you loved her & that she was another one of your “kids” — like all your animals are. God bless you…………

  13. Chris H.

    Oh Mary, I am so very sorry. I know how special she was to you and I’d become quite fond of her through your many posts about her. May happy memories of her bring you smiles in the future. Hugs to you.

  14. Stefanie Breslin

    Oh Mary, I am so sorry. Words will not comfort you right now but your memories will in the future. I know she’s joyfully prancing across the Rainbow Bridge. I’ll be keeping you in my prayers. God bless you!

  15. Brenda

    Oh Mary,
    I’m so very sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Susannah. Blessings to you.

  16. K

    I’m so sorry to hear about Susannah. It’s so hard to lose them but keep remembering that you gave her a wonderful life.

  17. Holly

    I am so very, very sorry to hear about Susannah. I teared up reading the news and thinking not only of Susannah, but of how you must be feeling. You gave her such an exemplary life and it’s terribly sad and hard to see that end. It leaves a hole in your heart, I know.

  18. Gloria

    I am so sorry to hear this. She was so very sweet and by sharing her with us in your newsletters you introduced us to the joy of another of God’s creatures. Susannah brought us all a smile and she will remain in our hearts. Through her picture card and quilts we will be reminded of her well into th future. We share in your sadness.

  19. Julie

    Oh Mary I am so, so sorry for the loss of Susannah. I am heartbroken for you. I’m glad you have the quilt to remember her. You gave her a wonderful life on the farm.

  20. Liz

    I am so so sorry to hear this! I’ve been praying for you and Susannah! To hear this news, I am heartbroken. She will be sorely missed here! No words cannot make you feel better now but memories of her will! Hang in there!

  21. Carol

    I am so sad for you, and for poor little Susannah. Your home will feel so empty … as will your heart. Every stitch of that wonderful quilt, when you are up to it, will be filled with lovely memories of your girlfriend.

  22. Ginny Jackson

    You did everything you could for her and she was lucky to have you. On Monday nights at 9:00 pm CST there is a candle ceremony at petloss.com that honors pets all over the world. It is short ceremony and it helped me a lot after beloved pets of mine have gone to the other side. It is amazing that so many people all over the world are going through the same thing.

  23. jean

    Mary I am so sorry that you had to say goodbye to your beloved susannah. She loved you so. What joy there will be upon recalling the relationship you two shared! I know your heart is breaking now but know that susannah will be there waiting for you at the rainbow bridge when your time comes. God bless you and take care of your hurt heart. Jean

  24. Diana W

    Oh, I am so sorry! I was thinking of you this morning and wondered how she was.
    She lived a good life thanks to you, and you did all you could for her.
    Keeping you in my prayers.

  25. SheilaS

    Our pets are part of our families and when one passes away they also take a part of our hearts. I am so sorry-Heartfelt sympathy.

  26. Laurie Mosley

    I know you don’t know me but I love following your blog and hearing your adventures on the farm and with quilting. And I am so sorry about your sweet little goat. I love my animals too and it really hurts when we lose them.

  27. Ellen Ziegler

    Very sorry for your loss…I know how you feel, it is so hard to lose the furry members of our family. I have been waiting for 2 months while my Shih Tzu’s puppies were growing inside. She delivered 3 beautiful babies on Jan 31 and then we had to euthanize the runt at the vets office at age 3 days. She had lung and heart issues that were making her turn blue when she got upset. IT was a very hard thing to do. Time is the only thing that will heal that heartache along with keeping busy! God Bless you!

  28. Janet

    I loved Susannah because you shared her life with all of us. I’m sorry she had to go to the rainbow bridge. Peace+

  29. Diana Schumacher

    So sorry to hear about Susannah. It is a terrible to lose a four legged family member. Warm thoughts of happy memories of her are being sent to you.

  30. Kathy B.

    I’m so very sorry, Mary for your loss of your very special four-legged friend. You did so much for her
    to make her comfortable and free of pain. She lived a wonderful life with you.

  31. Judy Brennan

    I am SO SORRY to hear about Susannah’s passing. Prayers for you during this difficult time.

  32. Kathie Chapman

    Mary, I am so sorry to hear about Susannah. You gave her a great life and it always sounded liked she loved living on the farm.

  33. Dixie

    Oh Mary, I am so sorry. Our hearts just do not know how to handle the loss of a beloved pet.

  34. Kristine J

    Oh Mary;
    I’m so very sorry to hear of your loss; what a beautiful life she had with you and all the other animals at the farm; thank you for sharing her along with all the other farm kids with us.
    Hugs and prayers sent your way.

  35. Donna Booth

    Oh, I am SO very sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time!

  36. Carole

    I’m so sorry to hear about Susannah. Thank you for sharing her with all of us. Hugs and prayers are sent your way. Bless you for taking such good care of her.

  37. Kathryn

    Oh, I am so sorry. Remember all the happy times you’ve shared together, what a joy she was. I pray you get through this sad time. She had a wonderful life!

  38. Penny C

    Oh Mary I am so sorry! I can feel your heartache all the way here! You were such a loving good Mommy. She lived a good life with you. She is a little Angel jumping around happy and no more pain. Blessings to you. xoxoxo

  39. Jana Biermaier

    So very sorry…I know how much she meant to you!!! She couldn’t have had a better life than the one you gave her!

  40. Donna O

    Mary so sad to hear this news. Take comfort in all the good memories you have of Susanna. She had a good and loving life with you. Blessings to you.

  41. Terri spencer

    OMG, I am so sorry, our animals are like children. Susannah was lucky to have you for a mom!

  42. Lauren

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I know you LOVE your furry animals not as pets but like your children – true family members. The love our pets give us is truly unconditional and something that stays with us forever. Saying an extra prayer for you and Susannah. You gave her the greatest gift of just loving her!!

  43. Louise

    I feel your pain Mary, it is never easy. You have given so much love to all of your furkids.

  44. Jane Velander

    My heart is breaking for you. We all have been following Susannah’s story and were sure all would be ok. I am so very sorry.

  45. Judy

    I am so sorry to hear the news about Susannah. Losing our furry family members is never easy. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  46. Brenda A in sunny AZ

    So very sorry to hear the news. The quilt you shared with us yesterday will be extra special now and I’m sure you’ll be quilting it and healing at the same time.

  47. Luanne Lindeman

    Mary, I was so very, very sorry to hear about Susannah’s passing. We are so blessed if a special four-legged friend comes into our lives, but oh, it hurts so when we have to say goodbye. I’m so sorry you are going through that sorrow, and I truly hope that having the little quilt will bring comfort to you now, and make you smile again one day. Susannah was so lucky to have your love and care, and I truly believe their love stays with us always. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  48. Linda Hanley

    Mary – My heart aches for you. Susannah is in a better place and her suffering is over. Everyone who loves animals has to go through this and it is terrible. You gave her a wonderful life. Time heals and you are a wonderful person and you will get through this. My thoughts are with you. Linda

  49. Dianne H.

    So sorry to hear your very sad news about Susannah. I so enjoyed hearing about her and seeing the pictures. My heart goes out to you. Losing our pets is very, very hard.

  50. mary marx

    So sorry don’t know you personally,but I always read and look forward to your tribute. You will have to hold onto your memories. Mary

  51. anita fetzer

    I am so sorry. She was so special and you were so good to her. She will never suffer again Mary. Blessing to you all.

  52. Pat Moore

    I’ve been following you for a short while now and have been so impressed with your love for animals. I cried when I saw your post that said “heartbroken” – even before I read it. I’m so sorry and so sad. I understand that quilting your special Susannah quilt will be soothing – even with all the tears that will get all over it – stitch after stitch. Our furry ones are so important to us. I know you will miss her terrible. ….Pat M

  53. K

    I’m so, so sorry for your loss. I was never able to visit you and the “family”, but have enjoyed your blogs and certainly have enjoyed your stories from the farm, even from reading the Gazette. Our animals friends are most precious to us. May you remember all the smiles and good times she gave you. God bless, K.

  54. susan blazevski

    So sorry to hear that. I know how worried you have been about her. I was full of confidence that she would pull through.

  55. Margie Braaksma

    So sorry to read this. I was very interested in hearing the outcome of her surgery as my sister raises dairy goats in Colorado. She has many pets! I lost a 17 year old cat and a 15 year old cat in the last 3 months and it never gets any easier. My thoughts will be with you as you grieve her.

  56. Dee W

    I am so sorry to hear this, but obviously someone thought it was for the best for her to walk to Rainbow Bridge. You know she’ll be there waiting for you, take care.

  57. Pat Robinson

    My heart breaks for you. I am so very sorry there wasn’t a better outcome. Hugs to you Mary.

  58. Julie Burkhardt

    Mary, remember all the fun times you enjoyed with Susannah…we all know how special she was to you. Keep her close to your heart with fond memories.

  59. Ellie

    Mary I am so sotty for your loss! You have been so reluctant to do this and now this. You did your best for her and loved her. She knew that and has added to your life in many ways. She will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge along with her friends and yours, all pain free and healthy!

  60. Bonnie McKee

    Mary, I am so very sorry to hear this very sad news. My heart breaks for you. Loosing a sweet pet is so hard, especially after all the effort you went to to keep her healthy and comfortable.
    You were a good mom to Susannah, and she had a good life with you!
    You are in my prayers.
    Bonnie, in Oregon

  61. Sue Davis

    Our Dear Mary,
    As all of us are writing and praying for her we knew the outcome wouldn’t have been this. I hope you bring her home to the place she loved. There are no words to express the sadness. Nothing makes it better. She was so loved. You are so loved.

  62. Carolyn Barnett

    I am soooo sorry for the loss of your beloved Susannah. Please know that many of us suffer with you as she was a big part of our internet life with you. Please take comfort in the knowledge that you provided the best care for her. Hoping your heart will mend and that you will always have happy memories of your beloved friend.

  63. Barb Gambucci

    That is such sad news. She was so lucky to have you. Be proud of yourself. I wish that there were more people in the world like you. You have an amazing love for animals, and it shows in your
    writing about them. I enjoy your blog so much. I am sending a big hug to you.

  64. Kim T

    Mary…so sorry for your loss of Susannah. I wish that there had been a different outcome to the surgery. I can only imagine how you are feeling, but do know how it is to lose a pet…they are a special part of our family, and very much missed when gone. May your memories bring you comfort.

  65. Linda

    I am sorry for your loss. I know how worried you were about Susannah. I enjoyed hearing about her and seeing the pictures. It is so hard to loose our furry friends. Praying for you.
    Linda from Tennessee

  66. Pat Johnson

    Susannah will forever be in your heart. What a lucky girl she was to have you as her best friend. So sorry for your loss. She will be waiting for you on the Rainbow Bridge.

  67. Launa

    Oh no Mary,
    Not the news any of us were hoping for today. Susannah held such a special place in our hearts, too. My thoughts are with you.

  68. Tammy Guerrero

    So very sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. I recently lost a horse and losing a family member is never easy. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

  69. Phyllis

    My heart is sad for you n everyone involved, it is so devastating to lose a pet, n she was a beauty..but she now is in Heaven n in no pain..

  70. sweettea

    I am sorry to hear about Susannah. I won’t understand your heartbroken but the new made me cry … I have a bunch of “Susannah” over here at our small farm. Warm hugs from Texas

  71. Crystal Daniels

    I’m so sorry to hear this, we all love our furry critters. Sending hugs and prayers to you!!

  72. Colleen Bradley

    Thinking of you Mary – Susannah is at peace now with no more infections, you are a wonderful person, the care you give your animals is amazing, an inspiration to us all. I have this new appreciation for goats and land permitting I would look at getting one.

  73. Mary

    I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I have been following her on your daily reports. Hugs to you. Mary

  74. Katie

    So sorry to hear of your loss.. U had her for many fun years…kept up with her stories….Katie , Gilbert,Az.


    Mary, I cannot express how sad I am for your loss. She knew how much she was loved how much you cared. Please accept my sincere condolences. She was such a fixture at your place. I am sure she will be waiting for you at the rainbow bridge.

  76. karla thompson

    oh Mary, I am so sorry about Susannah. I think I know a little how you must feel as I lost my sweet kitty Finnegan almost a year ago after he survived surgery, but died when coming out of anesthesia.

    Susannah had a wonderful life, and you were an exceptional mom to her— I think when you feel a little better and can do it, you should write that book about her you have talked about….. it would be a great tribute to her…..

    love you…. and my heart aches with you….. Karla.

  77. Gwen Herbert

    Mary… so very sorry for the loss of your special Susannah. You have such a tender heart for your pets. Again, so sorry.

  78. Carol

    When I saw the subject of the email, I started to cry even before I read it. I am heartbroken for and with you. I saw her when I went to your shop in early September. How lucky you were to have each other for the time you did. I know words are useless at times like these so please just know that I am sending you hugs and prayers. God bless you.

  79. Diane Meyer

    Mary, I am so sorry to hear your news. I hope each day makes you feel better. You will always have
    Susannah in your heart.

  80. Kathy Hanson

    So very sorry to hear of your loss. I know that Susanna was family and my thoughts and prayers are with you!

  81. Jane Krepela

    I am so sorry about your dear Susannah. Your love and wonderful care of her and all your critters shine through your emails and endear them to us, your cyber family. Susannah will live on in stories, beautiful memories…and quilts.

    With sympathy and love,


  82. Mareen

    Oh no Mary. I know how much she meant to you…..and how devistated you are. She lived a blessed life and you tried everything to make her life better. Know I am praying for continued strength to get thru this . Take care dear friend!

  83. Susan Peters

    Sending you a big hug. You are in my prayers! Hug all your other four-legged family members! They are missing her too! Susannah was blessed to have you!

  84. Laura F.

    I am so sad to hear about Susannah. She was so pretty. I stumbled across your blog a couple weeks ago and enjoy hearing about both the quilting and animals, and love seeing all the pictures. We don’t know each other, but…

  85. Rebecca Haines

    Our pets are beautiful gifts from God, I sure wish they could stay with us longer. Take care

  86. Cathy

    Oh Mary, I am so very very sorry. It just won’t seem the same not to hear about the antics of Susannah. Please accept my sympathies. They are not just animals, they are family members & live in our hearts.

  87. KAREN

    Feeling so dad and empty for you, Mary. So many have said eleoquent things already — Am chiming in with all of it. Susannah’s spirit will always be there with you.

  88. KAREN

    So sorry for the typo .. Should read “feeling so SAD …” I’m remembring how it was when we lost our 2 cats and wasn’t paying close enough attention to the keyboard and didn’t catch the glitch on the re-read before sending.

  89. Jan Mittler

    OMG!!!! Oh Mary I know how much she meant to you. I am so sorry………….she has been such a big part of your following and your blog that she was part of us too. Again I am so sorry
    When you loose a pet they are in our hearts forever.

  90. Linda

    I am so sorry….The world is a lesser place tonight without her….How lucky she was to be so loved….

  91. Judy Rounds

    I am so terribly sorry to hear your heartbreaking news. My heart and thoughts are with you.

  92. Elizabeth McDonald (catskill quilter)

    I am so truly sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you…

  93. donna j

    I am crying with you. Bless you, dear woman. Susannah is at the rainbow bridge waiting for you.

  94. jane plourde

    Sorry for your loss. I know how important she was to you by reading your emails that
    I so enjoy yet. I was not able to see the goats when I was able to come to your store but
    by reading the Goat Gazette and your emails she was a part of me to.
    Thanks for continuing to email on the daily activities.

    Jane Plourde

  95. Susan

    I am so sorry t hear that you lost your friend, we were so pulling for her. Thank you for trying to help her with the chance of surgery. I will miss hearing of her, the stories really brightened my day.

  96. betty cummings

    So sorry to hear about Susannah. She was ‘the face’ of Country Threads for so long. You will enjoy so many good memories of her and her escapades. She was fortunate to have been your friend.

  97. Jane dumler

    So very sorry to hear about Susannag. she was so special to so many. Your wonderful memories of her will help. Our beloved furry friends are so hard to lose and so hard to replace.

  98. Mary Rhodes

    My heart goes out to you! She fought so hard. It is very very hard to loose wee friend that brought so much joy in your life. Hugs Ms Mary. Now she is bring joy to Jesus.

  99. Marilyn H

    So sorry to hear about Susannah. She will live forever in our hearts…….in Country Threads……and in your quilt.

  100. Rina

    hi Mary
    I am so sorry for your loss,,,Susannah was a friend to all of us and a child to you and your family….
    I loved reading everything you wrote about her and the compared it to our Kathleen, she is our
    milkgoat, and we love her to bits!
    may you find the strength to carry your pain!

  101. Cheryl

    So sorry to hear of the loss of Susannah. She was the Icon of Country Threads and a very part of your family. You do such great work with all your animals. Take care knowing others care.

  102. Carolyn

    Very sorry for your loss, death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. Susannah is in a better place–if that is possible, you are so very good to your fur babies!

  103. Marilyn Morley

    Heartbroken is the word – it is because you loved her so much – be thankful to have had so much love – I know she felt every bit of it. Love to you in your sorrow. M

  104. Mareen

    Mary – As I read this again I see how many lives you have touched with your quilts, your words, and your pictures of your family of which your pets are such a big part. God entrusted them with you and I know it is not much help for all of us to try and comfort you now but realize how much you mean to so many people and just seeing this blog with all the sympathies sent to you shows you how much we care. You have given all your pets the best life that could possibly have and you are giving that love to the dogs you are taking care of in your home while their parents are away. Blessed are we to have you in our lives. You are such a dear friend and it hurts me to see you hurting. Take care!!

  105. Judy

    O – I am so sorry! What a heartbreak! Covering Y’ll with prayers that God will continue to wrap you in His comforting Grace!

  106. Becky

    OMG……so very sorry for your loss!!!! Our pets are so much a part of are lives, they are part of our family and to loose one leave such a hole in our hearts. I’m so sorry!

  107. Mary Welker

    Mary, I am so sorry to hear of your loss.
    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Our pets are also our children and losing one as I did recently is not easy… she will always be in your heart fondly.

  108. Noël

    Oh no…I had to text my mom this morning and share the sad news. We both send our condolences and a big hug. I can picture all our heavenly pets welcoming Susannah home. Noël & Delores

  109. Kris in Naperville

    Devastating to say goodbye to our furry family! She was one lucky lady to have you as her HuMom…thanks for sharing her with us…now I need a tissue to sop up these tears…thinking of you….

  110. therese

    I am so tearful for your loss – I have being following your post each and every day – I also have 6 doggies, an african grey, birdies outside, a stray cat at home and about 8 stray wild gutter cats at college that is fed a full meal each day – my heart breaks if any animal passes on and believe you me I have lost plenty of amazing pets – Susannah is with all the other angel animals in heaven – go well and we will light a little candle for her – please continue with your amazing work and Susannah will be there with every stitch you make – Go well – greetings and fondest love from Bethlehem in the Free State, South Africa – I remember so well my maltese doggie had to be put down when he was nearly 26 years old and our vet said – Therese this doggie survived thru love and passion for so many years – I know you are the type of person that radiates love and passion for animals and your talent

  111. sue lewis

    Mary, I am so sorry you had to lose Susannah. She will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge. I definitely believe in that. I am sure our beloved pets will be in heaven. They are so our family and it is so hard to lose one. Be comforted in knowing you have many friends who feel like you about our pets and understand the grief.

  112. Tina Benz

    Mary, I am so sorry for your loss. She was beautiful. My prayers and thoughts are with you at this time.

  113. Kyle

    I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy and you really do take good care of all your babies. I hope you find peace in knowing how you touch your fur babies I. Such a special way!

  114. Linda

    Poor girl and poor you for having to go through it! Sometimes it is too much to bear when we lose our animals.

  115. Pat

    It is heartbreaking to lose a pet. I have lost many and it never gets easier. Thoughts with you.

  116. Diane

    So very sorry, Mary! I was so hoping that would all go o.k. I know you will miss her terribly! Hugs. Diane

  117. Lori gust. (olund)

    So sorry….she was one of a kind…..my heart aches…my prayers are with you

  118. Patricia Pierce

    Mary, I was saddened to hear the news of Susannah. What has struck me over the last few weeks, as I have just joined your site , is your amazing love for your animals, all animals. You are so willing to care for the pets of others – there is always a menagerie with you which brings smiles to my heart. May you find comfort in the presence and love of all your other animals and all your friends around the world who are so fond of you.

  119. Barbara Russell

    I am so sad for you. You gave Emma a wonderful life and did everything you could for her. Take comfort in that. She has crossed the Rainbow Bridge, is not in pain and is smiling down on you, thanking you for your love and wonderful care.

  120. Robin Rauk

    Sorry Mary!!
    thank you so much for taking care of my baby last week
    She is just wiped out this morning 🙂
    She will probably sleep all day today

  121. Cyndy Frey

    I am so sorry Susannah is no longer with us here on this earth. I am thankful that she lived a wonderful and much loved life. Years ago, Tammy and Avis made a quilt with a hole in a heart. I think about that quilt at times like this. I am praying for The Lord to patch that hole with His love.

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