Life on the Farm, 5-24-23

Life on the farm with animals is hard – just plain hard with many heartaches. Yesterday was one of those days. I had to euthanize Pudge and I had to call 4 vets before I could find one to come. Just begging someone to come and kill her – can you imagine? She was very sick with something – cancer probably but I didn’t have her posted. No need. Her belly was huge and she was dying but even then she had strength to fight me when the vet was trying to shave her neck to find a vein. Finally he gave in and sedated her before he gave the final dose in her neck and she died but it took almost 15 minutes of her body convulsing and shaking. Tears dripped off my chin as I had to hold her still for the vet. She had to know what was happening and what was coming. More tears. Her roommate Rosie fled the scene imagining she was next.

Pudge on the left and Rosie

After she was dead there was still work to do. I drug her body outside so that Rick could take her in the loader to the field where he had dug a hole. And with that she was gone from my life after many years.

Life on the farm with animals is hard.

184 thoughts on “Life on the Farm, 5-24-23

  1. Diane in Colorado

    Sending you big hugs. Your animals live great lives with you and you love them right to the end. Take gentle care of you tonight.

  2. Debra J Oscarson

    Oh, Mary, I am so sorry you had to go through Pudge’s passing this way. Tears reading your tonight’s post. We love our animals so very much. It is so hard to let them go. Hugs.

  3. Marsha from Kansas

    Mary, I’m so sorry you had such a trying day. You always do what is right for your furry friends even when it is so hard. Tears are on my face, too. Prayers of comfort going your way.

  4. Sue McG

    My heart is aching for you, Mary. It’s so hard to say goodbye to our precious fur babies.

  5. Catherine from Texas

    Oh, my heart is so sad for you. Saying goodbye is the hardest part of having pets. My thoughts are with you.

  6. Barbara

    Thinking of you and hoping you can find some comfort in the days to come.

  7. Toni Anne Potter

    How horrible, I’m so sorry for all you had to go through. I can’t imagine how painful that must have been. People might call them pets but they are part of our families. I’ll keep you in my prayers.

  8. Betty Klosterman

    Oh, what a sad day in your life. People without animal friends will never know the happiness of having such a true friend and the terrible sadness of having to put it out of it’s misery. My sympathy.
    Betty in Rapid City

  9. Diane in Maryland

    This is just so sad and I am so sorry. Pudge had a wonderful life with you. All your animals do. We love each one and they know it. This is heartbreaking. Hugs,

  10. Beth T.

    I am so very sorry. We had a somewhat similar experience with my dear goat recently. Our dilemma was finding someone to come get him once he put to sleep, as we cannot bury him here. Can’t make the vet appt until we know he’ll be able to be buried. So awful to be making those calls, so ghoulish, all the while tending to him, wishing things were different.

    It’s been two months and I still miss him every day, the sweetest, most loving goat ever. His brother is doing well without him, but I know he is missing him, too. Life on a farm *is* hard. Sending you a big hug. Wish I were there to sit in silent understanding with you. xxx

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Beth – at least we were in control of where to bury her but finding a vet was so disheartening. They all said they no longer made farm calls. I simply cannot have any more farm animals which feels like the end of my life already. How old was your guy? I believe Pudge was 12 and that’s old but it’s never a good time. Now I’m being nosey – where do you live that you couldn’t bury him? I’m just interested. My sympathy to you as well.

      1. Beth T.

        Our goat was about 12 as well. You’re not being nosy–you’re just interested, the way, people are. We don’t have farm equipment, and much of our land is not flat; really the only places where we could dig a big grave is the front lawn, as the rest is kind of terraced or has a very steep path that a digger couldn’t get down. It’s the same reason we tend the fenced areas with string trimmers and push mowers instead of ride-on mowers and leave the unfenced areas unmowed, because they are just too hilly. We had a similar situation when our llama died a few years ago, and it turned out that the same guys came out. They were very kind–and I think it was my call, reminding them of that visit, that prompted them to come out this time. (John had left three messages, asking for their help, with no response. Then I called, leaving essentially the same info, and adding that we still remembered how kind they were when our dear llama died, and how much that meant to us. The man called back 5 minutes later, explaining he was having some problems with his truck but that he would ask a friend for help. I felt a little better then; the world seemed a bit less cold-hearted.) I think this is a really hard time for vets; hard time for them to staff, and they are overwhelmed. The biggest emergency vet in nearby Portland, OR, recently announced they will no longer be open overnight. What a huge blow to the region. We have used them several times over the years. I’m grateful to have a long-term relationship with our local vets, but I know they are really under water some days. I can only imagine how stressful their job is. Lots of puppies and kittens but so much sadness. I’m so sorry about Pudge. I hope your grief shifts a bit, soon. I know you’ll always miss her but it is a good thing when it’s not a punch to enter the barn again.

        1. Mary Etherington Post author

          Beth – about response to your call: last week we needed a new toilet upstairs (long story) so I told Rick to call. We waited all that day for a return call and nothing came. The next morning about 8:30 I called the plumber and explained our predicament. They were here with a new toilet in 30 minutes and it was installed in less than 20 minutes!!!! Oh, the power of a desperate woman’s call!
          I understand about the steep terraces, etc. – our land is so flat we can see for many miles and we have just under 10 acres so plenty of room to bury large animals. A llama would have been pretty hard however. I have Pudge’s roommate who is very lame and JB the cat who is looking real rough to watch as my next losses. I knew this day would come – they’re all getting so old and I am too old to get more. Sad.

  11. Mary

    So very sorry to read this. Cherish the memories of the happy times you had with her. The cycle of life is always revolving.

  12. Lisa B

    We become so accustom to the animals in our life that their passing leaves a big vacant area. So sorry. Prayers and hugs to you.

  13. Sandra Goddard

    My deepest sympathy for your loss. We too live on a farm so I know how you feel at a time like this. Sending you hugs.

  14. Lora

    So sorry Mary! On an acreage, our animals are pets and friends and so many don’t understand that! My heart hurts for you! Hugs from me!😢

  15. Gail in Ohio

    So very sorry… yes, life on a farm is hard sometimes. You have my sympathy, from one farm gal to another…

  16. Marcia

    So sorry…I once thought I would like to live on a farm like you, but iron’s think I would be emotionally strong enough. Take care of yourself.

  17. Elaine Kopischke-Trejo

    I’m so sorry…..yes, more animals on a farm, more heartache….it’s so very hard to let them go…..

  18. Cheryl

    I’m so sorry about Pudge. I’ve enjoyed the stories about all of your animals. Years ago I wanted to have a goat farm. Losing a beloved pet is just heartbreaking. Hugs and prayers!!

  19. Susie Lenz

    I can’t imagine all the hurt and loss you have experienced on your farm. I do know that they have all brought you joy and love,and that is why our animals become family and take a part of our hearts with them when they leave us. I wish you peace.💗

  20. Kathy Hanson

    Oh, so sorry Mary! What a horrible day and so many problems! I am sending you a very big hug and lots of love! Wish I could give you that hug in person!!!!!😢❤️❤️❤️

  21. Janet

    So very sorry for the loss of Pudge. You gave her such a wonderful life. I hope the memories bring you comfort, in due time. 😪

  22. Chris in Alaska

    So very sorry Mary . It’s been not quite a year that I watched Bailey die – he too had cancer . It’s so hard to lose a good friend , especially when they are suffering and you are too 🙁
    Hugs, Chris in Alaska

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Chris – I remember Bailey – always sad to lose them especially the dogs. What will I do when Hazel dies?

  23. Sharon G.

    I’m so sorry, Mary! Having animals is hard and it’s especially hard when it’s the end of a long life. Pudge is no longer with you, but she’s forever in your heart! Cherish the memories.
    Take care. 💕

  24. Diana

    So sorry Mary, losing a beloved pet is hard enough but having to put them down is unbearable. Sending you hugs for being the strong loving person you are 🤗

  25. Debbie Archer

    Mary my heart breaks for you! It’s never easy to lose a fur baby and even harder the way she went.
    I pray that it will be a long time before you have any more losses!

  26. Jo in Wyoming

    No one can take your memories. Memories are a gift from those we love .
    If you don’t cry, you don’t care. It’s ok to cry.
    Life on the farm is hard, but you are a tough cookie and will get thru this and many more.
    Hang in there Mary, next week will be better.

  27. Carolyn Boutilier

    Sorry about Pudge. Farm life can be hard. with our 2 sons we had many good memories.
    Carolyn b Shenandoah Valley VA

  28. Montana Kathy

    Mary, so very, very sorry to hear this sad news. My heart goes out to you.💔

  29. Pamela Dempsey

    Oh, Mary, I am so, so sorry 😢! I’m sorry you all had to go through this and I pray she understood it was needed. She was beautiful and I know a blessing in your life. Hugs to you, my friend 😢.

  30. Dee from Shell Rock

    I’m so sorry. That’s the rub, we are older, we are losing our human friends and our animal babies. One of my new mom cats had her babies this morning but didn’t know what to do with them. I tried to help her but she wasn’t receptive to the idea. I felt bad for the kitties, I held them, stroked them. Hugs,

  31. Debbie Miller

    Mary you have my sympathies. We have always had animals also and losing them regardless of the circumstances is hard. I know you will miss her but she will suffer no longer and you have your good memories.
    My daughter just took her 11 year old dog to the vet for an extra large red skin tag. He discovered she has a very aggressive mammary cancer and said she might have 3 months. Their family is having a hard time waiting and deciding what is the best for Sadie so that she doesn’t suffer.

    1. Rita in Iowa

      Mary so sorry for your loss. Life always throw us a curve ball. You deal with each in the best way. Know that we are all there to support you. BIG HUGS TO YOU!

  32. Liz Schrader

    So sorry to hear thisMary. We
    Love our family pets but so hard to lose them😔

  33. Kate

    So sorry for your loss. It’s never easy to lose a friend and our pets are our friends. I can bring tears to my eyes thinking ahead to when I may have to put one of my pups down due to old age. I grew up on a farm and we were always burying kittens, dogs, and other animals we couldn’t have hauled away so I know about the loss. You gave Pudge a good life.

  34. Henners

    Mary so very sorry for your loss. I could just feel your pain as the vet was trying to get this task done. Sad day for you. I hope you’re able to get some restful sleep 🙏

  35. Teresa from Port Coquitlam, BC

    So sorry Mary,all fir babies are family and it’s always hard losing them. Hugs to you 💕

  36. Jill Klop

    Oh Mary! I’m so sorry for your loss. What a tragic thing to experience. We love our animals, whether they are dogs/cats, or your farm variety pets. They are our babies. I’m so sorry.

  37. Connie

    Sorry for your loss. We love our animals like a family member and it is hard to have them leave our life.

  38. Paula Nordt

    I am so sorry for your loss. I have been in your shoes and, yes, life is hard. I keep saying no more, but then another creature shows up on my porch needing a home and love.

  39. Deb E

    Our animals have a big part of our heart and when we lose one – especially when they are sick at the end, they take a piece of our heart with them when they pass. Pudge knew you loved her and I know she’s in a happy place now. I’m one of those who firmly believes that there is a place in heaven for animals, too – especially those who were truly loved. The animals we’ve lost over the years (49 years of marriage) – I still mourn each one, but I know I will see them again and it helps to make it easier. We love on our remaining dog like crazy and she is spoiled rotten, but she brings such joy to us. I know your other animals will gather around you to try to make you feel better, too. All of us who enjoy your blog and stories of your life on a farm also ‘gather round’ in our own way, too – you have many who are thinking of you right now!

  40. Carol Nichols

    Oh, I am so sorry. There just is no easy way. You are such a compassionate person and so wonderful to so many animals, yours and others. You are a blessing to all God’s creatures. You note brought tears to my eyes.

  41. Charlotte

    Mary, I am so sorry for this heartache. Pudge is now without pain, and she will leap for joy one day when she greets you at the Rainbow Bridge. xoxo

  42. Barbara Firesheets

    Mary, I am so sorry you had such a hard day and had to make that decision for Pudge. Sending hugs and prayers to you and Rick.

  43. Brenda

    It is so sad to lose our pets. I lost mine recently, and it is agony. Sending love your way and thanks for giving your pets the best life.

  44. Donna Giddens

    So sorry to hear Mary. You have such a big heart I know it was hard. Thinking of you.

  45. Sue in Oregon

    Oh, Mary…I feel so bad for you. That was indeed a very hard thing. You are the best animal/pet carer Ever. She had a wonderful life with you. Rest In Peace, without pain, Pudge.
    BTW…4 vets?? That in itself was hard. Around here we have to take large animals to the vet be it a horse, a cow, or a goat. They will no longer come out to the farm.

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      I don’t understand – why won’t they come to the farm? How would I have ever gotten Pudge in a vehicle? In fact the office did ask if I could bing her to the office and I said emphatically no. I will have to obtain a gun if that’s the case around here because I still have 5 goats who are too big to handle. Putting a sick elderly farm animal in a vehicle would be frightening to them and somehow they’d know they were going to their death. Don’t get me started on livestock semis.

      1. Janet S

        This is awful. You may be on to something with the gun. It would be super fast and maybe you could get a friend or neighbor to help. This sounds really sad and even mean but it may be less stressful for the animal. Animals enrich our lives so much that is always sad to have them leave us.

      2. Sharon Ray

        This situation is awful, I am so sorry for your loss and the trauma involved with the vet. My parents lived on a farm and they did all the “putting down” of the animals. It was hard for them because they loved the animals but no vets were around. At least there was no convulsing or anything, it was instant. It was just life on a farm, but the worst part. Hugs to you.

  46. Gayle Shumaker

    Hugs Mary. I know from experience that euthanasia can be horrible in some and welcomed by others. It hurts so much to loose each one but our lives are made so much richer with them in it.

  47. patti leal

    i am so sorry for your loss. you showed your love in your final actions by holding her. she probably sensed that in some way. take care of yourself. patti in florida

  48. Susan in Gilbert AZ

    Sending you a big hug and some imaginary tissues too! This is always hard, no matter how many pets we have seen thru to the end of this life! Pudge is pain free now and in God’s hands. Take comfort in your memories and knowing you gave Pudge the best life ever! Finding a vet at the end can be very difficult and definitely makes the situation worse. Find a vet practice that will always take a sick animal. There are some vets who will never say no, no matter how busy they are, if an animal is suffering and needs to be put down. I learned this the hard way too. But, there are vets out there with hearts of gold, that will always make time to help a sick animal! God bless you for all the animals you treat as family! You change their lives forever!

  49. Jeanie S, Central IL

    What an awful day, Mary! I am so sorry and sending you hugs. I hope tomorrow is a good one. Take Care, 🥰

  50. MarieM

    I’m very sorry for your loss! That’s a hard call to make. I believe he is in a better place. Hugs!

  51. Alice in SW Ohio

    Oh Mary, I’m so sorry you’ve had such a difficult day! It hard enough having a dear pet put down, but to have trouble finding a vet that would make house/farm calls….I can’t imagine! You live in a farm community! Things have really changed since I lived on a farm! Also the difficulty in finding a vein & holding Pudge until she passed. My deepest sympathy to you! ❤️

  52. Sharon

    Dear Mary,
    You are so brave to be able to send him to a better place!
    ❤️Sharon, Dana Point

  53. Chris in Washington

    So terribly sorry for this sad loss. It seems we never have our beloved pets long enough. Sending gentle hugs your way. ♥️

  54. Suzanne

    Life is hard with animals. My dog we had for 25 years died in his sleep 3 weeks ago, he was sick. No matter what you know it’s still hard to bear. I feel for you and offer condolences. As queen Elizabeth said, you can’t grieve if you don’t love. So, we love and loved our animal family. I think so be it, rightly so cause I’m still hurting

  55. Bonnie McKee

    I agree, life on the farm is very hard. I don’t even want to think about those hard days. Your account of your hard day made me cry, too, but you did the kind thing. Hang in there….you love and care for so many precious pets and wild birds and other critters. God bless you for your efforts…and for your tears because the tears show what a big heart you have.
    RIP Pudge ❤️

  56. phyllisiniowa

    Oh, I am so very sorry you needed to send Pudge on. This is so hard, but done with Love.
    I cried each time before, during and after. Your post brought tears to my eyes.

  57. Leslie

    Oh Mary. I’m so very sorry. You love Goats. You love YOUR goats the most. My heart aches for you. Hug.

  58. Karen Pidcock

    Mary, You are a kind and loving pet person. Pudge loved you and I’m sure knew and felt your sorrow yesterday. Take comfort in all your great memories.

  59. Barbara

    Thank you for sharing the hard times as well as the good times. You gave Pudge a good life.

  60. Jan

    I am so sorry about the loss of Pudge. Animals have a way of getting into our hearts –
    I’m sending hugs & prayers to you.

  61. Amy Kollasch

    I am so sorry for your loss. They truly are family. Prayers and hugs.

  62. Kelli L Heldreth

    So very sorry for your loss! May the Lord comfort you as only He can!❣️

  63. Lynette in orlando

    Mary, I am so very sorry. Hardest thing to do when we have animals. I cried for weeks when I had to put my horse down, not to mention many dogs. Breaks one’s heart. 💔 Sending prayers your way. Xx

  64. Sandy

    Hi Mary, I’m so sorry for your loss, it’s hard to say farewell to a member of your family, especially pets who love us unconditionally. Take care and know you will see Pudge and all your pets one day again, much love from Sandy

  65. Linda in MI

    With the love of animals comes a lot of heartache, worry and pain. Pudge is in a much better place now, she had a wonderful life on your farm and I know she loved you for your kindness and love. Life on the farm is hard, I try hard to remember all the wonderful moments all my animals have given me but those last few breaths are etched in the brain forever and the pain of loosing them never leaves. I am waiting until the day when I am greeted by all my horses, chickens, dogs and cats and we will be together again. I really believe we have more than money could ever buy when we have the love and devotion of our animals and I so petty those who cannot open their hearts to the love, grace and beauty of the fabulous animals that God has given us. We have very rich lives Mary.

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Your last sentence summed up my life – we have very rich lives. Sweet of you to think about ME at this time when you have sadness in your own life. I also think of that day when I meet all my beloved pets in Heaven.

  66. Cheryl from Niagara Falls

    My heart aches for your sadness. No one should go through the heartache you are feeling but unfortunately, with all the love and happiness and unconditional love our animals give to us, is the sorrow of that final day and goodbye. I am so sorry.

  67. Sandra Jones

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am a city girl myself and cant even imagine living on a farm where you would have to make those decisions and others on a daily basis. Hoping for you a brighter day today.

  68. Rita in Iowa

    Mary so sorry for your loss. Life always throw us a curve ball. You deal with each in the best way. Know that we are all there to support you. BIG HUGS TO YOU!

  69. Judy Michigan

    A sad day for sure Mary. Sorry for another friend leaving the farm.

  70. Terri S.

    I know how you love your animals. Because I am the same. I am so sorry and I feel your pain.

  71. Pat Smith

    After our last golden retriever died, I said we were never having animals again. That lasted almost a year, but then our little sheltie from the shelter came into our life. I can honestly say life with him has been the greatest delight during the last 10 years. I live in fear we’ll have to go through your similar situation. As terrible as it always is, i think animals should die at home surrounded with their family. I’m hoping if that awful time comes I can find a vet to come to the house. I’m so sorry you had to go through such a traumatic experience. I’m surprised to hear that so many vets in Iowa are not making farm visits now. What are farmers supposed to do with animals that can’t come to the office in a carrier? I’m thinking of you with sadness.

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Thank you, Pat and all of you. I always say no more pets but then somebody needs a home. Sonny has added richness to your lives – I know that for a fact. Thanks for giving in! Another reader says in her area all animals – even large farm animals like cows and horses – have to come to the office to be euthanized. Can you imagine the sorrow of loading your dead animal back into a pickup or trailer? Or euthanizing them while they’re in the trailer and watching them drop to the floor when they lose consciousness? A living horror!

  72. Ann Simmons, NW Ohio

    Mary, you must be absolutely heartbroken. Such an ordeal for you and Pudge to go through. My heart goes out to you! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

  73. Teresa in Indiana

    Mary, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m crying with you. I hope today is an easier day for you. 💔

  74. Jan P in TN

    I am so sorry you lost Pudge. Even though you knew what you were doing was right for her, I can’t even imagine how painful it was for you when she did not pass easily. I know it broke your heart!!! This is always so difficult for those of us who dearly love our animals/pets! Sending hugs!

  75. Deb in Idaho

    I’m so so sorry. Just remember the wonderful memories you have. I know your heart is breaking . Grieving is hard but a must so we can move forward. I will pray for you during this hard time.

  76. Carolyn Howard

    No one can tell you about your personal hurting and grief, that is all yours. You gave Pudge a good life and no doubt, the affection was returned by Pudge.

  77. Rosalie

    Mary, it’s hard enough to have them euthanized but more so went they don’t go gently. I can’t imagine how your other reader manages if she has to find a burial place outside her property to bury her goats.
    Life on the farm is so hard some days and then joyful others.

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      That’s what I wondered, too. Like funeral arrangements. What if the animal died naturally? How would you know where to bury them – as they are laying in your barn dead and decomposing? Nightmare!!!!

  78. Kris in Naperville

    Oh Mary — I am so sorry that you had to go through all of that…. traumatic for sure. Please know that I am thinking of you and praying that yesterday doesn’t haunt you… sending hugs

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Kris in Naperville – you hit the nail on the head – “haunting”

  79. Jan Shaffer

    I’m so sorry, Mary. But, even though it was painful for you, it would have been a long, long death for Pudge if you had let the disease run its course. You’re brave to bear these sorrows.

  80. Diana in Des Moines

    Pets are pets whether on the farm or in our home. I feel for you as I have had to put down too many cats. Sounds like she fought till the end – that’s a stubborn goat for you.
    Many prayers for you today as you journey on without her. Give the others love and hugs today. It will help.

  81. Lois Ann Johnson

    I am so sorry for your loss, Mary. Just know that many of your readers are grieving right along with you today. We empathize with you and know how you are feeling with this loss. Be extra good to yourself today and let your body process this grief.

  82. Sherrill

    The hardest part of owning pets/animals is knowing that most likely you’ll outlive them. My Fang lived 17 1/2 yrs and had to put him down 2 days before Christmas. I said I’d NEVER get another again and I didn’t for over 2 yrs…then I caved. I’ve had little Tink for a tad over a year now but she will be my last.

  83. Meredith in Cincinnati

    So very sorry to hear your sad news. Praying for peace for you and Rick.

  84. Gayle in Tennessee

    So sorry for your loss. At least Pudge is no longer suffering. God bless.

  85. Sandra Pierson

    Oh Mary I wish I could have been there to help you with Pudge. I know how hard it is to go through that. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
    Sandy Pierson

  86. Mareen Nedved

    So very sorry Mary – your animals are your children and it is so hard and I am so glad she is no longer suffering. Take care!!

  87. Kim

    I’m sorry for the your loss and stress during this traumatic end of life for Pudge. While I advocate for humane end of life intervention for animals when the need is there, i feel it makes the loss harder to take. I would have done as you did. 😿💔

  88. Ann in Virginia

    I am so very sorry that you had to go through such a hard experience. You will be blessed for such loving care for your pets. Pets are our family and it hurts so much. May God give you peace .

  89. Kim from TN

    I’m so sorry for your loss, I have enjoyed the many postings of Pudge over the years. I shall miss her.

  90. Mary Rhodes

    So sorry Mary. Its hard to make that decision than go through with it. So hard to let go. My heart goes out to you. Dont over do.

  91. Jan Smith

    Oh, it never gets easier, does it? Each loss brings the same sorrow. Pudge knew how loved she was though, and had a comfortable life. Sending you a big hug.

  92. Susan K in Texas

    I’m so sorry you had to go through this Mary. We love our animals so dearly and it’s hard to make such decisions. We don’t want them to suffer.
    I did not realize that vets don’t make farm calls any longer. I wonder if they still do around my parents farms. I’ll have to ask. I do know that at times they have to bring a cow in to the vet in town.

  93. Kathy B

    I am so sorry, being on a farm all my life I know how heartbreaking it can be. 😢

  94. Linda

    I am so sorry you have lost Pudge…..Your animals are so lucky to be so cared for and so loved….It is so hard to lose a friend….our pets love us and ask for so little…God Bless!!

  95. Shirley Andersen Smith

    Oh Mary,
    I am so sorry. Keep your memories close in your heart. 🥲

  96. Susy Boyer

    I’m so sorry Mary and Rick. We’re never ready for this as we think we are. Our animals come in all shapes and sizes just like we humans and we Love them. Peace in your heart soon.

  97. JeanneH in the Finger Lakes of New York

    Oh, Mary! I am so sorry about Pudge.

    Offering virtual hugs,

  98. Sherri Huff

    Oh Mary, I’m so sorry for your sweet, Pudge.💔 Sending you a GIANT air hug! It’s so hard when we lose our animal family members. 💔

  99. Colleen in Central Oregon

    Very sorry to hear it Mary. Pudge had a wonderful life with you.

  100. Cheryl Regan

    So sad for you…life with animals has many fun and good moments….then the inevitable loss. Just know that you have ended her suffering . Be well.

  101. Patricia

    Oh Mary, that is horrible. I’m so sorry you had to endure that end. It makes me so sad. Animals are hard. You have them, love them and take care of them , enjoy them. And then they get sick and old. Hope today is better.

  102. Helen Jane (Tx)

    Hi Mary, So sorry for your loss of Pudge and the events surrounding it. Prayers for your days ahead.

  103. Annette Austin

    So sorry for your loss of Pudge the goat. I’ve been through this loosing farm animals so hard.I’ll be thinking of you.

  104. Karen Cyr

    I am so sorry for the loss of your companion Pudge and for the anguish you had to endure to end her life. I’ve had to do it with several of my dogs and cats and I can recall with absolute clarity each of their passings because it was so traumatic. That’s why I admire you so much for continuing to take in and care for cats and dogs and goats and others even when you know what awaits you at the end of their lives. You are giving them a wonderful life, Pudge included, by bringing them into your farm life and caring for them for however long they live. I haven’t had the strength to do that again. But you retain the memory of the joy they have brought you during your time together, and hopefully, that will sustain you through this time of loss. Take care.


    So sorry, Mary Keep remembering you gave her a wonderful
    life. Guess we must grieve after all the love they have given us
    over the years. God hold you close.

  106. Caryn in Washington State

    Oh Mary-I am so sad for you. Our animals occupy such a large part of our hearts. Pudge had a wonderful life with you and Rick, and is now frolicking in the deep grass of another Wonderful Place. Hugs for you.

  107. Launa

    Sad to hear! She had a wonderful life with you; best to remember how much love ❤️ she gave back to you!

    Just a sunny Thursday here that quickly changed to rain! So many warnings of rivers overflowing n deep underpasses full n dangerous! Drivers beware!

    Launa in Idaho

  108. Chapman Patti

    I’m so sorry. Our animal friends bring so much joy. Pain comes too as you know too well. Patti

  109. Jessica in Florida

    Oh, Mary! I’m so very sorry!!! I felt every word you wrote. I had a cat who had a cancerous tumor on his heart and had to euthanize him…he was my first cat and I refused to leave the room. I felt that he was in my life for a short while, but I was in his entire life and he deserved to have me there. He made it extra hard as he purred and ‘made biscuits’ so happily in my lap — even as the vet injected the medication. He refused to go, though and convulsed for 5 minutes as I sobbed while holding him and talking to him. The vet finally gave him a shot directly into his heart and he was gone. It’s a moment in my life I will never forget. He loved me with everything he had and the feeling was so very mutual. Pudge is now free of her illness and I know in my soul she’s happy. Sending all my love to you.

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Jessica – you said what I always say – an animal’s last moments should be with someone who loves them – how could anyone desert them to endure death all by themselves? People who say “it’s just too hard” are selfish – in my opinion. I would never attempt to convince anyone of that. I’ve held so many pets over the past 50 years and some were harder than others. Some I will never get over. Thanks for your thoughts.

  110. Sharon Geiger

    Oh, how sad!! My heart aches for you. Pudge was loved and she knew it! Hugs!!

  111. Lorraine

    So sorry for your loss. I know your heart aches but you did the right thing for Pudge. It is hard to watch them suffer. Time will heal a little hopefully

  112. Sue Hoover

    Mary, I’m crying with you. Life is hard and life with animals is even harder. I’d hug you right now if we were closer. Take care.

  113. Ann in PA

    Mary, how heartbreaking! You have such a big heart; your sweet Pudge and all the others have a sense of who loves and cares for them. The more you love something, the more difficult it is to say good-by.
    I had no idea that Vets stopped making farm visits. What an awful ordeal for you. I’m so sorry…

  114. Margie Braaksma

    So very sorry. No matter the animal or the age it’s always hard. Your animals are very loved and I think they know that.

  115. Nicole Hanson

    I’m so sorry for you. Life is hard when you love and have to let go. I wish you peace.

  116. Janice Brown

    Mary, reading your post was heartbreaking. What you and poor Pudge had to go through just to end his suffering. My heart goes out to you during this very difficult time.

  117. Cathy D

    There are no words Mary 💔. Just know that Pudge had a happy and full life with you on the farm 💙

  118. Beverly innO-G

    Mary, my thoughts are with you for comfort. Each animal is precious in its own right. It’s terribly sad to lose one we’ve loved. I am so sorry for your loss of Pudge

  119. Diane, Squeak, Buddy

    I , too, am so sorry about Pudge and how hard it was on you and her. Our pets are such a big part of our lives and it hurts so much when they have to be gone.
    I am keeping you in my heart.

  120. Jane Boyer

    Losing an animal we love is never an easy experience. I’m sorry for your loss. We love each of our pets with our whole heart, not just a portion of it.

  121. Deedee McDonald

    It sure is hard but your animals are so lucky to have you. We just put our dog down a month ago , I still can’t get the vision out of my head when he finally collapsed in my arms, I loved him so much …. It we all move on. Take care of yourself..

    1. Mary Etherington Post author

      Deedee – oh, how terrible for you but you knew he needed you at that moment! Thank you holding on to him! When people don’t stay with their animal being euthanized I think it’s horrible. What must that animal be thinking when it’s abandoned at the vet office? All alone. Makes me so sad to think of it. You have my sympathy and I know your heart is hurting. I hope that vision fades in time.

  122. Quilting Sister

    I’m just seeing this, Mary … so very sorry that you’ve lost another of your animals. I’ve had to have 5 cats put to sleep during my almost 70 years, and each time it was just awful. They become our very dear friends, don’t they? But it was always the right thing to do for my kitties, and no doubt it was the right thing to do for your goat, too.

    I’m thinking about you … take care.

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